look at that

this is beautiful

so beautiful

I feel like i have improved a lot with my rendering on my last drawings and im very happy :)

But i still feel like my art is a bit "amateur", like if something was missing.... mmh...

( •_•)

Also, as you may have noticed, I'm drawing a more police related stuff... But some want to see more things related to my series like Singapura and Cracy, too.... mmmh .....(=ↀωↀ=)

Also I kinda want to make a car game one day... but it's just a thought! Just a thought.

Mmmmh....

Mmmmh... Thank you all for your support too.... I love your comments and favorites so I'll try to do better everyday... Hopefully I'll be able to draw like the people i look up to! (´◡`)

*gets up*

*falls down again*

Here they are!

I tried to draw something cleaner than usual. Tried a new style using clothes photo too

I seek for criticism and what you think about these new drawings! :)

I wont be able to draw for a while now!

Peace :)

Hello everyone!

After a somewhat long pause, I made two drawings :

One is of Pico!

I thought it would be a crime to be on Newgrounds and not drawing Pico! :D

Next, I drew Izabi, @BallsyMerc OC! :)

He drew my OC Jenn! (＾▽＾)

Please check his works! :)

I also have 3 other drawings I made that are stored in "My Projects" for the time being, I'll upload them this week :)

I'll just say that i wont be able to draw for a while. So yeah. (´・ω・｀)

Keep on being awesome everyone!!!!

I played this game :

I invited ChronoNG and Placeholder456 ! :D

Thanks for joining!

Two other people joined too : Minimand and MobyG :)

It was very fun to play with you guys!

Thank you! :D

I hope that we will get a physical release of Infestedpear's "Born To Work Retail"

And I wish that Bacun will release his own artbook one day

A lot of incredible artists on NG.

18 years old people be like :

If I had a male cat, I would name him "Sakamoto" like the cat in Nichijou

Or "Muta", like the big cat in the movie The Cat Returns (i like this guy, he's cool)

And if i had a female cat, i dont really know how i would call her lol

Maybe something about her coat

Calico - Celica? lol

Texudo - Ma'am : because she'd be very distinguished with her tuxedo. I would name a male Tuxedo "Sir" XD

Orange - Orange, like the fruit :)

And yeah

Catto

First, I have to thank to those who helped and supported me in last post, you all are the best :)

So i took a little break. I'm still taking this break, but I still doodle sometimes. It's still a break, just an inconsistent one!

One day, I skipped class (as usual), but I walked around the limits of the campus. Those were places of the city I have never been to. I took some photos that I drew next

I also drew two other sceneries, one screenshot from Streetview

and a screenshot from a MV that is very beautiful! (please listen to this song! :D)

So, back to my little stroll : I saw a cat walking under some parked cars!

I also walked on the periphery (or i think it was) because I saw a baby deer in the "untouched" areas of the city (it's called a periphery???)

Well, I didn't saw the deer completely, just its butt, because he was hidden behind some bushes lol

As I saw that there was less and less sidewalks, I decided to go back to the streets because honestly I didn't knew where I was going

I came across two cool buildings that I didn't knew existed : one was a small in size "creative" school, and I put creative with " because when I searched about this school on the net, I found out this tiny school was actually part of MUCH LARGER art school organization, with some schools that are in the US.

I wouldn't have thought a school this small was actually part of a big organization!

(The school's name was "Brassart")

https://www.brassart.fr/en/

And the other was a very big and Minecraft-like building of the Department archives. Cool :3

I also found a very funny thing XD

A sign that reads "No Swimming"...

...on a small and VERY DIRTY pond!

I'd be pretty concerned if someone would want to swim in a pond this dirty lol

idk i found that funny :)

And then what happened? I became sick the next day! Because it was too cold the day I was walking around (you can tell by the photos lol), but I think it was half worth it.

still sick today btw, but I'm feeling better :)

So yeah. I'm still not feeling emotionally great, not even better. But thinking about it, I think I should stop whining about stuff. People have it worse.

As said earlier, I'm still making a pause in drawing. I feel I should learn to draw fast, because I'm 18, and I have no concrete skills. But at the same time, it stress the fuck out of me. I need to go fast, but I can't.

The most probable scenario is that I become a NEET (which I'm slowly heading to).

I don't care about whatever will happen. I'm at peace. As said earlier, people have

it worse.

Fuck it, we ball, even if we fall.

I don't know if anyone have noticed this, but my drawings are getting lazier and lazier.

I don't love things particularly, i just like them. Like, i like cars. I like guns, cops stuff, cats, french fries, manga, 90's stuff, etc...

But I'm not inspired. I just draw what i feel on a period of time, and when this period pass, I draw something else. That's why I drop so many projects or concepts so quickly. I don't feel the emotion I associated with this work, so I drop it and work on something that fit my current feeling.

Mh. Boring.

My life is also very uneventful. I know that it's better this way, but paired with my indifference? It suck. Midly.

I also have no goals in life. I don't care about getting a job or a wife or whatever. I just don't care about myself. I'm not depressed, I'm actually happy, but maybe I'm too much happy? Too comfortable? Maybe i just fucking fried my dopamine receptors?

But at the same time, I'm too dumb to follow class. Too weak to follow sports. Too lazy and unmotivated to pursue any of the "Three Great Life Goals" (Job, Marriage, Kids)

It's as if the moment I became 18, we opened the big gates of adulthood for me to see after all these years, only to see a vast desert of nothing.

Well, i AM thankful that nothing is happening to me. But. It's boring, you know? I don't want to get in an accident or be the victim of whatever fucked up things happen to people though, and I'm very thankful.

I love nothing and I hate nothing. I'm just mildly concerned or moderately happy about things.

I'm not PASSIONATE. I don't have PASSION.

I wonder if everyone have this "I could talk about it for days" subject. I don't. Because I think that things come and go, and I'm actually not that smart, so I know I'll make mistakes in my judgement or knowledge.

Maybe I'm not daring enough?

I tried to explore more subjects with Singapura and Cracy, but... I'm getting unmotivated.

Now, I still wanna draw, but I don't know how or what. I have nothing to tell. Nothing to speak about.

I fear I'm losing my passion for art.

But at the same time, I'm a bit apathetic about it. It's not like it's the end of the world, right?

I'm getting lazier and lazier. Im skipping all my classes, and just sit around in my room. But I still help my family, doing the groceries and helping my siblings with their homework. I just don't want to work for myself anymore.

It's as if my body melted or was gradually crushed. But under what? I don't know.

I'm not sad, I'm not angry, I'm quite happy in fact. It's a very weird feeling. As if my life was too easy to be real.

It's like a very weird form of euphoria. Underwhelming euphoria.