First, I have to thank to those who helped and supported me in last post, you all are the best :)

So i took a little break. I'm still taking this break, but I still doodle sometimes. It's still a break, just an inconsistent one!

One day, I skipped class (as usual), but I walked around the limits of the campus. Those were places of the city I have never been to. I took some photos that I drew next

I also drew two other sceneries, one screenshot from Streetview

and a screenshot from a MV that is very beautiful! (please listen to this song! :D)

So, back to my little stroll : I saw a cat walking under some parked cars!

I also walked on the periphery (or i think it was) because I saw a baby deer in the "untouched" areas of the city (it's called a periphery???)

Well, I didn't saw the deer completely, just its butt, because he was hidden behind some bushes lol

As I saw that there was less and less sidewalks, I decided to go back to the streets because honestly I didn't knew where I was going

I came across two cool buildings that I didn't knew existed : one was a small in size "creative" school, and I put creative with " because when I searched about this school on the net, I found out this tiny school was actually part of MUCH LARGER art school organization, with some schools that are in the US.

I wouldn't have thought a school this small was actually part of a big organization!

(The school's name was "Brassart")

https://www.brassart.fr/en/

And the other was a very big and Minecraft-like building of the Department archives. Cool :3

I also found a very funny thing XD

A sign that reads "No Swimming"...

...on a small and VERY DIRTY pond!

I'd be pretty concerned if someone would want to swim in a pond this dirty lol

idk i found that funny :)

And then what happened? I became sick the next day! Because it was too cold the day I was walking around (you can tell by the photos lol), but I think it was half worth it.

still sick today btw, but I'm feeling better :)

So yeah. I'm still not feeling emotionally great, not even better. But thinking about it, I think I should stop whining about stuff. People have it worse.

As said earlier, I'm still making a pause in drawing. I feel I should learn to draw fast, because I'm 18, and I have no concrete skills. But at the same time, it stress the fuck out of me. I need to go fast, but I can't.

The most probable scenario is that I become a NEET (which I'm slowly heading to).

I don't care about whatever will happen. I'm at peace. As said earlier, people have

it worse.

Fuck it, we ball, even if we fall.

I don't know if anyone have noticed this, but my drawings are getting lazier and lazier.

I don't love things particularly, i just like them. Like, i like cars. I like guns, cops stuff, cats, french fries, manga, 90's stuff, etc...

But I'm not inspired. I just draw what i feel on a period of time, and when this period pass, I draw something else. That's why I drop so many projects or concepts so quickly. I don't feel the emotion I associated with this work, so I drop it and work on something that fit my current feeling.

Mh. Boring.

My life is also very uneventful. I know that it's better this way, but paired with my indifference? It suck. Midly.

I also have no goals in life. I don't care about getting a job or a wife or whatever. I just don't care about myself. I'm not depressed, I'm actually happy, but maybe I'm too much happy? Too comfortable? Maybe i just fucking fried my dopamine receptors?

But at the same time, I'm too dumb to follow class. Too weak to follow sports. Too lazy and unmotivated to pursue any of the "Three Great Life Goals" (Job, Marriage, Kids)

It's as if the moment I became 18, we opened the big gates of adulthood for me to see after all these years, only to see a vast desert of nothing.

Well, i AM thankful that nothing is happening to me. But. It's boring, you know? I don't want to get in an accident or be the victim of whatever fucked up things happen to people though, and I'm very thankful.

I love nothing and I hate nothing. I'm just mildly concerned or moderately happy about things.

I'm not PASSIONATE. I don't have PASSION.

I wonder if everyone have this "I could talk about it for days" subject. I don't. Because I think that things come and go, and I'm actually not that smart, so I know I'll make mistakes in my judgement or knowledge.

Maybe I'm not daring enough?

I tried to explore more subjects with Singapura and Cracy, but... I'm getting unmotivated.

Now, I still wanna draw, but I don't know how or what. I have nothing to tell. Nothing to speak about.

I fear I'm losing my passion for art.

But at the same time, I'm a bit apathetic about it. It's not like it's the end of the world, right?

I'm getting lazier and lazier. Im skipping all my classes, and just sit around in my room. But I still help my family, doing the groceries and helping my siblings with their homework. I just don't want to work for myself anymore.

It's as if my body melted or was gradually crushed. But under what? I don't know.

I'm not sad, I'm not angry, I'm quite happy in fact. It's a very weird feeling. As if my life was too easy to be real.

It's like a very weird form of euphoria. Underwhelming euphoria.

OF THE 7-ELEVEN WHERE I WAS TAUGHT

(HELP ME I CAN'T GET THIS SONG OUT OF MY HEEAAAAADDD)

1-Keiichi Arawi

He's the author of my #1 fav manga : "Nichijou". He's also writing a new manga named "City", pictured there ^ :)

I really like how simple his art look. But at the same time, there's a lot of details! His panels are always filled, sometimes with complex background patterns too when there's face's close-ups.

2-Tsukumizu

Really love how his style is sketch-like!

He's the author of "Girl's Last Tour", a manga I HIGHLY recommend to you if you love post-apocalyptic stories, philosophy and the "fuck it, we ball" mindset.

A really touching story....

His style consist of thin lines and a lot of cross-hatching :)

3-Mine Yoshizaki

Looking at his art made me understand better anatomy :)

I also used to watch Keroro when I was a kid!

Also i like his lineart particularly!

I really like how he draw the limbs, and the poses he draw for his characters too :)

4-Bacun

Bacun was the reason i joined Newgrounds lol

Love his coloring!

His style reminds me a bit of Mine's style, especially the way he draw anatomy. He have this semi-chibi feel :3

Here's his first submission posted on NG, when he was around 17-18 (he drew that when he was my age!)

He's super popular, got a full time art job, super cool style, in a relatively little time (4 years)... He's really amazing :)

5-Douman Seiman

Author of "Voynich Hotel" and "How Many Years To Babylon?", I really love how "edgy" his style look, if you get what I mean? Well, it do fit his stories and humor too lol

His lineart is agressive, and his character designs are super cool! :D

6-Ryoko Kui

She's the author of "Dungeon Meshi". I fucking love her style. It really look natural and clean... AND HER CHARACTER DESIGNS ARE TOP CHEF

Her art really inspired me to make my charcters as different from each others, especially the faces :)

(WHY IS HER ARTBOOK ONLY AVAILABLE IN JAPAN. WHY. I WOULD HAVE BOUGHT THEM ALLLLL)

So yeah, that's all :)

It's the second time I've been featured on Takeover Tuesday!

Thank you very much @TheYoloBOT9000 ! :D

No nazis for this time lol, just Cracy being Cracy :

And a normal drawing :)

I know that some people prefer more normal content, so I'll try to balance things out :)

Some draw cute, attractive girls.

Some draw beautiful, colorful landscapes.

Some draw dark, detailed scenes.

I draw catscarspoliticscomicsdigitalfanartscopscharacterstraditional.

Yeah.

I'm going everywhere and nowhere at the same time.

I wasn't satisfied with this short comic and I made some grammatical errors in russian too, so I un-published it and uploaded a fixed version, with a new page!

Thanks to Placeholder456 for the corrections :)

Here it is! :)

https://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1541905#bbspost28011333_post_text

My goal would be to attract more people to the serie, while giving a place for the serie fans to discuss about it.

I'm happy that you like my serie, I'll continue to write and draw things about her. I intend to develop the story too.

Also, I'm interested in knowing what is your favorite Cracy piece, or if there's things you like/dislike about the serie! I seek for criticism!

Vote for Cracy

(Should I make a Cracy Crew/Club ?)